There are things that wont come your way when you chase after them. They only hit you when you least expect it. For me, one of those things is strength. Only when you're at your lowest point, when you're about to break, when you're about to explode, you realize how much strength you have inside. How much you've been through and how, in all those weak nights, you had taught yourself to become stronger. Experience is the cruelest of all teachers, and a certain something happened that made me realize how strong I am as an individual.
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When it happened, I did all those three options.
I let that 'bad thing' define me. All the things said to me, I believed. All the blames thrown, I took. I lost my self esteem, I lost my confidence, I lost my trust in myself. I just wanted to get it over with and I let myself become the victim. I blamed myself for everything. I labeled myself, even though I always stood with my principal; never label and/or limit yourself. I did both. It was horrible. :(
I let the 'bad thing' destroy me. I was not happy. I was not living. I was only wasting time and frankly, that was all I wanted to do. To waste time, to fast forward everything, to skip days. I was not there, it was only my body while my mind and soul was somewhere else. To come and think of it, it was so weird. How much one thing could change me. I felt weak and broken. As a matter of fact I was broken.
And as for the last thing... I honestly don't remember how I managed to had gotten there. As though one day I just woke up and I was doing good again. I just realized instantly and somewhat magically that I am much stronger than I think I am. That, out of all the people I always thought underestimate me, I was the one so clearly underestimating myself the most. I guess time just fixed me? From then on I became a better a person. I became wise, positive, and genuine. I became stronger than I ever was. Out of all those great things, I became happier. I am blessed. :)
So, all the troubles you have in life should never pin you down. Let it be a chance for you to bloom. Let it be a chance for you to fight. Let it be a chance for you to find yourself. God bless all of us!
