Catch Up

Hello lovelies!

It's been a pretty long time, life has been.. well.. lived. It has its ups and downs and I think overall I'm doing pretty good. Highschool is nice, though of course there are days I wish I could just erase. 

Talk about catching up, I think there is nothing more interesting to talk about than Highschool. Have I made new friends? Yeah. Have I found my place? Mm perhaps. Have I tried out new activities? Definitely. How about first crush? There is someone. Are my grades good? Not sure, hope so. Well those are the only things I could think of about my new chapter.

Honestly, I'm in need of an adventure. I'm not saying that life is boring or anything but it would be great to be put in a new position other than where I am standing right now. The correct word is jenuh. Truthfully when I got into Highschool I didn't expect anything, I only wanted new friends and new experiences. Now that I'm here, at first it felt great, new, different. Now, everything is plain. It's like I "fitted in" waayyy too easily that I didn't have a chance to live the moment. Maybe I like starting over? Maybe that's exactly what I was hoping for? A new beginning, a drastic change. But, you know, moving into a new school isn't really a start over when half of the people you meet now are the people you went to school with for 3 years.

I didn't have the best reputation in Junior Highschool, I wouldn't say I had a bad reputation either. But, I want it to be squeaky clean again, no rumors, no mistakes in my past being brought back up, none of those. You can't really completely leave your past, can't you? That worries me. How can I redeem myself from all that I was, all that I shouldn't have ever been? 

That's my thoughts for tonight, I guess there's not much left to talk about. Hope it was worth your time. Love always, Me.